1. Finish all laundry (Oh, and put it away...where it belongs -I hate this part)
2. Wash all bedding on both beds (And actually make beds)
3. Set up treadmill
4. Use treadmill (for excercise, not clothes closet!)
5. Make menu for the week (Take out doesn't count!)
6. Candle Order
7. AT Order
8. Vacuum and dust
9. Clean kitchen
10. Scrap two pages
11. Work on organizing scrapbook room (Crap room as DH calls it!)
This list is never ending and so depressing. Hopefully all will be crossed off by the end of the evening!
Sunday, May 25, 2008
This place they call my home
As of the end of March, this town has been my home for six years. It still does not feel like home to me. It is a strange town---one greatly divided. The town is run mainly by two logging mills, which employ numerous average working class families. This town is also home to a Native American Tribe, many live here still today.
Strangely this town is also made up of many socially elite people. A good group of them are innertwined with the school which directly affects me. However I really do not fit in with them, except on their terms. I have found that I am mostly disgusted by their attitude towards others and their ability to shun or degrade someone without ever saying a word. Most of these women call themselves Christians and are never above reminding you of this on a daily basis. They sure aren't good examples of one however....On a daily basis I walk on eggshells, wondering if I will be on their "Hello" side or "Ignore" side.
DH and I are in a strange place these days. Most people our ages have children in high school and grade school. We have neither. I think, at times, we are purposely left out of gatherings due to that fact. People feel that we would not enjoy hanging out kids and having our every conversation be about them. In fact, we would love nothing more than to be involved in those. Even if we choose to adopt, we will still be in a strange place. While most of our friends children will then be in High school or college, we will just be starting out.
Since being in this town, all I have ever wanted is to have the friendships that I had while I was in Oregon. I have never considered myself someone hard to get along with and have, in fact, always had an adundance of friends. So, this has been a new and very sad experience for me. I have hoped and had plans of just giving up on finding that one friend or friends that would be there for me like I have had in the past. However, I am the type of person who just needs and has to have friends around to survive. So I still wait for that one person to fill that empty void that I have had forever.....
DH has promised that once we retire, we can move anywhere I want. I seriously count those days....every day. I can't wait to find a new place to call home....
Strangely this town is also made up of many socially elite people. A good group of them are innertwined with the school which directly affects me. However I really do not fit in with them, except on their terms. I have found that I am mostly disgusted by their attitude towards others and their ability to shun or degrade someone without ever saying a word. Most of these women call themselves Christians and are never above reminding you of this on a daily basis. They sure aren't good examples of one however....On a daily basis I walk on eggshells, wondering if I will be on their "Hello" side or "Ignore" side.
DH and I are in a strange place these days. Most people our ages have children in high school and grade school. We have neither. I think, at times, we are purposely left out of gatherings due to that fact. People feel that we would not enjoy hanging out kids and having our every conversation be about them. In fact, we would love nothing more than to be involved in those. Even if we choose to adopt, we will still be in a strange place. While most of our friends children will then be in High school or college, we will just be starting out.
Since being in this town, all I have ever wanted is to have the friendships that I had while I was in Oregon. I have never considered myself someone hard to get along with and have, in fact, always had an adundance of friends. So, this has been a new and very sad experience for me. I have hoped and had plans of just giving up on finding that one friend or friends that would be there for me like I have had in the past. However, I am the type of person who just needs and has to have friends around to survive. So I still wait for that one person to fill that empty void that I have had forever.....
DH has promised that once we retire, we can move anywhere I want. I seriously count those days....every day. I can't wait to find a new place to call home....
Saturday, May 17, 2008
19 Days and counting....oh, but who's really counting????
This school year has gone by incredibly fast. I can still remember being back the first day and picturing what would happen this year. I don't think much has happened according to my plan I had in my head, but in all it has been a good year.
It has been a stressful year in that, for a small school of about 350, at least 8 kids have been directly affected by death. They either lost a mother, a father, or a sibling. Kids never cease to amaze me though. They bounce back with a resilience that I no longer posess. I sometimes wish I still had it but know that I would not be able to handle the emotions that I now
know how to deal with.
With the end of this school year coming to a close, my list of to do's is quickly becoming longer and longer. I always have grand plans but never seem to get much of it accomplished. On my list so far:
1. Paint Bedroom
2. Install ceiling fan in bedroom
3. Paint bathroom
4.
It has been a stressful year in that, for a small school of about 350, at least 8 kids have been directly affected by death. They either lost a mother, a father, or a sibling. Kids never cease to amaze me though. They bounce back with a resilience that I no longer posess. I sometimes wish I still had it but know that I would not be able to handle the emotions that I now
know how to deal with.
With the end of this school year coming to a close, my list of to do's is quickly becoming longer and longer. I always have grand plans but never seem to get much of it accomplished. On my list so far:
1. Paint Bedroom
2. Install ceiling fan in bedroom
3. Paint bathroom
4.
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
100 things...in the making....
1. I just turned 40 years old.
2. DH and my best friend, Teresa (and her hubby), planned a surprise weekend for me which I knew nothing about.
3. It made turning 40 much easier!
4. I work a full time job plus a part time job.
5. I love both my jobs and don't want to quit either.
6. I love saving money and hoard it until I have enough to buy something special I want...right now it is a dining room set and a hutch.
7. DH and I love to travel.
8. Each year we spend at least two weeks in Bandon-By-The-Sea, Oregon.
9. We hope to retire close to the ocean.
10. We have a bichon frise named Daisy Mae.
11. She is spoiled rotten and runs the house most of the time.
12. We love her to death!
13. Hopefully this year we can start the adoption process.
14. I am really scared but excited too.
15. I never wanted just one child but it may turn out that way depending upon money and the time it takes.
16. We have two nephews, one on each side.
17. They are both only children and spoiled rotten.
18. We love them to death.
19. I have a brother who has a traumatic brain injury.
20. I love that guy more than anything.
21. He is so loved by everyone!
22. Sometimes I get teary eyed thinking about him.
23. He has taught me so much!
24. I have had my best friend since 7th grade.
25. After high school, we went back to NY to be nannies.
26. It was a great experience.
27. Even after 27 years, we are still best friends.
28. I talk to her more than I talk to my sister.
29. I am closer to her than my own sister.
30. Some day I want to live next door to her.
31. Our Husbands get along too!
32. My best friends kids call me their aunt.
33. I love it!
34. I am very close to my mom.
35. I am sad that we don't talk more on the phone.
36. I miss not being closer to her.
37. I was adopted when I was six weeks old.
38. Sometimes I cry when I think about it.
39. It all seems so surreal.
40. I found my birthmother about 8 or so years ago.
41. It has been an interesting ride.
42. I haven't talked to her since September.
43. I think I know why but out of respect for her, I keep it private.
44. I have pretty much decided to not have anymore contact with her.
45. It is too confusing, even at 40 years old.
46. I am at peace with it.
47. My parents were very supportive when I told them I had found her.
48. Sometimes I wish they would ask me more about her.
49. I get stressed very easily.
50. Death freaks me out.
51. I read obituaries every day but am trying to break this habit. (Its depressing!)
52. If someone my age has died, I think about it all day.
53. I really need to quit thinking about it.
54. I want to be skinny.
55. I am starting a new diet program that is very successful. (Ask me about it in a couple of months, I think I may become a life coach for it!)
56. When I lose a lot of weight, I am going to cut my hair short.
57. I can't wait!
58. WHen I got married, I moved to Northern CA.
59. DH loves it here---in the mountains, close to fishing.
60. I do not like it here at all.
61. DH promised me that when we retired we could move wherever I want.
62. I really want to move back to Oregon or Idaho.
63. Sometimes I miss being back home so bad, I cry.
64.I think I have some OCD tendencies.
65. I have to check and recheck the doors every night to make sure they are locked.
66. Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night to check them.
67. I am deathly afraid of the dark too.
68. I have a hard time cleaning my house because I am so anal about how clean I can get it.
69. The same with organizing because I become obsessive about it.
70. I really should go to the Dr. and get some meds for it.
71. I am afraid of Drs. though because of needles.
72. I have an unnatural fear of needles (shots).
73. I physically get sick and cry if I think I am going to have to have one.
74. I really don't cry much though.
75. DH and I met on the internet.
76. Our first phone date lasted 11 HOURS.
77. When we met, we instantly hit it off.
78. We long distance dated for two years but saw each other at least once a month.
79. He almost died and had to postpone asking me to marry him.
80. I didn't know this until just a few years ago.
81. He wanted a short engagement so we got married six weeks later.
82. We had a very small wedding-27 people.
83. That is exactly how we wanted it too.
84. We went on our honeymoon to Montana and Wyoming since I had never been to either.
85. Dh tripped and broke his foot at Old Faithful.
86. I am extremely allergic to cats.
87. I can tell in about one minute if a cat lives in a house.
88. I am afraid of them too because of not being able to breath when I am around them.
89. I love to scrapbook and make cards.
90. I think I am borderline obsessed with it.
91. DH is very supportive though and helps me find scrapbooking stores whenever we are traveling.
92. I have my own room dedicated to crafts that is packed to the brim.
93. People always want to buy my cards but I am not confident enough to let them.
94. I love to sleep but can't sleep in anymore.
95. I want to go back to Hawaii but to a different Island.
96. I have to be cold in order to sleep.
97. It was so hot and humid in Maui that I couldn't sleep.
98. I was grumpy from lack of sleep and get grumpy when I don't get enough sleep.
99. Dh says I can snore pretty loud sometimes.
100. I can't believe I did it and will probably edit and revise.
2. DH and my best friend, Teresa (and her hubby), planned a surprise weekend for me which I knew nothing about.
3. It made turning 40 much easier!
4. I work a full time job plus a part time job.
5. I love both my jobs and don't want to quit either.
6. I love saving money and hoard it until I have enough to buy something special I want...right now it is a dining room set and a hutch.
7. DH and I love to travel.
8. Each year we spend at least two weeks in Bandon-By-The-Sea, Oregon.
9. We hope to retire close to the ocean.
10. We have a bichon frise named Daisy Mae.
11. She is spoiled rotten and runs the house most of the time.
12. We love her to death!
13. Hopefully this year we can start the adoption process.
14. I am really scared but excited too.
15. I never wanted just one child but it may turn out that way depending upon money and the time it takes.
16. We have two nephews, one on each side.
17. They are both only children and spoiled rotten.
18. We love them to death.
19. I have a brother who has a traumatic brain injury.
20. I love that guy more than anything.
21. He is so loved by everyone!
22. Sometimes I get teary eyed thinking about him.
23. He has taught me so much!
24. I have had my best friend since 7th grade.
25. After high school, we went back to NY to be nannies.
26. It was a great experience.
27. Even after 27 years, we are still best friends.
28. I talk to her more than I talk to my sister.
29. I am closer to her than my own sister.
30. Some day I want to live next door to her.
31. Our Husbands get along too!
32. My best friends kids call me their aunt.
33. I love it!
34. I am very close to my mom.
35. I am sad that we don't talk more on the phone.
36. I miss not being closer to her.
37. I was adopted when I was six weeks old.
38. Sometimes I cry when I think about it.
39. It all seems so surreal.
40. I found my birthmother about 8 or so years ago.
41. It has been an interesting ride.
42. I haven't talked to her since September.
43. I think I know why but out of respect for her, I keep it private.
44. I have pretty much decided to not have anymore contact with her.
45. It is too confusing, even at 40 years old.
46. I am at peace with it.
47. My parents were very supportive when I told them I had found her.
48. Sometimes I wish they would ask me more about her.
49. I get stressed very easily.
50. Death freaks me out.
51. I read obituaries every day but am trying to break this habit. (Its depressing!)
52. If someone my age has died, I think about it all day.
53. I really need to quit thinking about it.
54. I want to be skinny.
55. I am starting a new diet program that is very successful. (Ask me about it in a couple of months, I think I may become a life coach for it!)
56. When I lose a lot of weight, I am going to cut my hair short.
57. I can't wait!
58. WHen I got married, I moved to Northern CA.
59. DH loves it here---in the mountains, close to fishing.
60. I do not like it here at all.
61. DH promised me that when we retired we could move wherever I want.
62. I really want to move back to Oregon or Idaho.
63. Sometimes I miss being back home so bad, I cry.
64.I think I have some OCD tendencies.
65. I have to check and recheck the doors every night to make sure they are locked.
66. Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night to check them.
67. I am deathly afraid of the dark too.
68. I have a hard time cleaning my house because I am so anal about how clean I can get it.
69. The same with organizing because I become obsessive about it.
70. I really should go to the Dr. and get some meds for it.
71. I am afraid of Drs. though because of needles.
72. I have an unnatural fear of needles (shots).
73. I physically get sick and cry if I think I am going to have to have one.
74. I really don't cry much though.
75. DH and I met on the internet.
76. Our first phone date lasted 11 HOURS.
77. When we met, we instantly hit it off.
78. We long distance dated for two years but saw each other at least once a month.
79. He almost died and had to postpone asking me to marry him.
80. I didn't know this until just a few years ago.
81. He wanted a short engagement so we got married six weeks later.
82. We had a very small wedding-27 people.
83. That is exactly how we wanted it too.
84. We went on our honeymoon to Montana and Wyoming since I had never been to either.
85. Dh tripped and broke his foot at Old Faithful.
86. I am extremely allergic to cats.
87. I can tell in about one minute if a cat lives in a house.
88. I am afraid of them too because of not being able to breath when I am around them.
89. I love to scrapbook and make cards.
90. I think I am borderline obsessed with it.
91. DH is very supportive though and helps me find scrapbooking stores whenever we are traveling.
92. I have my own room dedicated to crafts that is packed to the brim.
93. People always want to buy my cards but I am not confident enough to let them.
94. I love to sleep but can't sleep in anymore.
95. I want to go back to Hawaii but to a different Island.
96. I have to be cold in order to sleep.
97. It was so hot and humid in Maui that I couldn't sleep.
98. I was grumpy from lack of sleep and get grumpy when I don't get enough sleep.
99. Dh says I can snore pretty loud sometimes.
100. I can't believe I did it and will probably edit and revise.
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I think I am going to try this blogging thing again. Who knows how long it will last but it is worth a try!
Life is so busy for us and time just flies by. DH is scheduled to start a new job within the School district in July. He is excited so I am excited as well. It has been in the making for years and finally has fallen into place. With close to 500 computers in the district, his services are needed on a daily basis. Ever since we have been married, he has worked close to two full time jobs. Through all of this, we have both realized that money is not everything! With that being said, we will get to spend a lot more time together! I love this man!
Life is so busy for us and time just flies by. DH is scheduled to start a new job within the School district in July. He is excited so I am excited as well. It has been in the making for years and finally has fallen into place. With close to 500 computers in the district, his services are needed on a daily basis. Ever since we have been married, he has worked close to two full time jobs. Through all of this, we have both realized that money is not everything! With that being said, we will get to spend a lot more time together! I love this man!
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